Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Definitions.

When thinking back I don't always think this is where I would have ended up. A twenty-something wife and mother, 2x cancer survivor, and 3x college drop out, living in Louisville, KY. Is that really what defines me?

The Toys R Us theme song does not fit everyone. I always wanted to grow up. I think most would agree I grew up faster than others. Some days I even feel a bit robbed. I feel completely blessed to be who I am and where I am, today, right now in this moment.

It took me a long time to feel that way to be honest. We moved around a lot during my childhood. And when I say "alot" I mean 3 elementary schools, 4 middle schools (one of them was twice) and 2 high schools. The longest place we lived somewhere was less than 3 years. I remember being promised a horse a time or two when we would move, still searching for that palomino, suppose it is a wild stallion these days.

When my parents divorced the moving ceased. Well, for the time being, until I was bit with the bug. I was merely 19 and wanted OUT. Out from under the chaos that was all things California, out from under my life. I had every intention of starting my adult life over. I mean it was only 1 year in the making, I had time. I was taking control and the only place I wanted to be was in Roanoke, Virginia; my serenity.

School was the top priority, right after boys and friends that is. Who was I kidding? An adult needed to get a job and a place to call their own. So everything went on the back burner, well besides boys. Good thing because I reeled in the hubs ;o)

Even to this day I seem to put everything before myself. I have enrolled in school, AGAIN. This time I am going to get it done! In the past I have completed several courses towards my Associated degree as well as some classes that are needed for Radiography. I was enrolled in a health program for radiography right after my 1st dance with cancer and then when it came back to tango I decided school just wasn't what I needed to be focusing on. I won't let the obstacles of life get in my way this time. I have already completed one of my classes! Well let me reiterate that one I have completed one "module". Each class is broken down into several sections called a module. Depending on the credit of the module you have on average 5 weeks to complete each. It is through the local college and all the classes are online, though I am hoping to take a few others that really interest me on campus. Ok back on track. I completed my first module, Economics, in just a few short days and passed my final with 100%! I am hoping to start the next one within the next week or so. I am so grateful to have been given this opportunity and know that this will get me to where I want to be in the future! Yes, it is just to finish my associates, but hey that is the stepping stone to bigger and better things, right?

I suppose there are a lot more things than just the obvious that define me and I am still learning them. As most of you know a lot changes when you become a wife, and a lot more changes when you become a mother. What defines you?



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